A year ago I talked about having Goal Jeans as a real, tangible goal that you can see every day. I talked about wanting to get in some… but to be honest, I wasnt that overweight. Or at least I wasnt that uncomforable with being overweight. I would say I wanted to lose… and then eat a Whopper…. and cuss myself the rest of the day. It was a vicious, self deprecating cycle.
I used the excuse that Mike loves me no matter what size I am – which is true – but *I* don't. I don't like feeling self conscious, I don't like not feeling cute, I don't like seeing clothes on Pinterest that will only look good on a size 5 when I am … well… not a size 5.
I bought a pair of goal jeans (which I actually got into a month ago) and then my Mother In Law gave me another pair that I just fell in love with – quickly becoming Goal Jeans #2. I knew I would not be happy until I got into pair #2.
Losing weight sucks. And it is not for sissies.
Yes, there are ways to take the “easy way out” – but this whole Diet & Exercise thing – ya know, the way they say you are supposed to do it – is HARD. No surgery. No shakes. No pills. No “fat wraps.” No Cheating. They are not kidding when they say it has to be an entire lifestyle change if you want to truly get fit and get healthy and not “cheat” or stick a bandaid on being fat.
I began 2 months ago practicing portion control.
I also joined the gym.
I wasnt religious about it in the beginning…. but then we started working on Brandcation.
I got debilitating shin splints.
I got fitted for new shoes.
I stopped drinking alcohol of any kind. I know.
I began using a FitBit.
I bought a kettle bell.
I did not deprive myself of anything – I simply watched the portions.
I drank enough water daily to float a school bus.
I began eating “clean” at least 80% of the time.
I surpassed my Pregnancy #2 pre-baby weight.
I seldom feel hungry anymore.
I fell in love with the gym.
I can TASTE the nasty preservatives and stuff in food.
I feel soooo much more flexible!
I hired a personal trainer.
I CHANGED MY LIFE.
And I got… in my goal jeans… the #2 pair.
Sooo….. I bought another pair. Hey, apparently I do everything in threes…
I am very proud of how far I have come, and with my 2012 Theme being “Finishing” I plan on “finishing” this goal 100% and finally feeling good inside of my skin again. I know where I want to be, and I finally have my head in the right place that I know I can achieve it. I realize now – it was all really a head game anyway.
I chose to be fat. I chose to eat like a pig. I chose to be lazy.
I chose to change my life. Without cheating.
I am not gonna talk sizes cause well – every freaking designer seems to have a different idea of what each size is – BUT I will tell you this… this Summer when you see me out and about – I will be rockin some Pinterest fashions.